Today :)

hi everyone
sorry i haven't posted much lately. I told you the blog would only last for a week or so
anyways today was fun
It was thursday, which is my favorite day of the week. I have science in the morning, then volunteering, and then choir
so science was fun. Two of the guys in my science class were arguing about whose feet were bigger, and I was cracking up the whole time. They, being total science geeks, didn't understand why I was cracking up(because you know what they say about a guy with big feet...)
after science I went out for lunch with two of my friends(who are in science with me) we went to this really good pizza place called sliver, which was really good.

volunteering was SO MUCH FUN today. The kids were really great, and they were all really nice and amazing. This one girl nina also goes to choir with me. It's crazy hair day at their school tomorrow, so since i only come on mondays and thursdays, they(the kids) asked me to have crazy hair today. I put some red hairspray in, and put my hair in pigtails. Me and a bunch of the kids had a "Crazy-hair salon" where they all messed up my hair, and put clips in it and stuff(they have lots of accessories we use for the dolls during free-choice). My hair looked pretty cray-cray after that...

so choir was also fun. It was awkward though. I'll explain why in a minute
So Casey likes this boy(who goes to choir) whose name is Ezra. He's pretty weird  but idk. Anyways, He's jewish(like me) and we met on tuesday(he wasn't at choir) at this Shavuot thing. Shavuot is a jewish holiday, when you stay up all night studying the torah. Anyways Ezra and I were both at this all-night thing, and we were talking about who he liked. So he said that he didn't like anyone, but that if  he had to date one girl at choir, it would be TOBEY. So that was horrible, ince they're twins

so I was telling Jamie and David about this before choir, and then Casey and Tobey arrived. I took Tobey aside and told her. David took Casey aside and told her(because he's a boy, and didn't understand that it would crush her) so yeah. That was awkward. After that, a bunch of girls who go to choir(they're all like a grade or two below me) came over carrying Nina. They all think she's super cute and love picking her up and stuff like that.
anyways as soon as Nina saw me she comes running over(she actually fell, but didn't get hurt) and jumped up into my arms. I don't let her do this at her school, because then I'd have to pick up all the other kids too. But at choir, it's ok.

Tobey and Casey had to leave after half an hour of choir, which left me all alone in Soprano-land with David and Jamie(Since Jaya and Natasha weren't here today-idk why) which was ok. Oh, and they both forgot their music, so we were sharing. We joked around a bit, and were laughing and stuff. It's pretty fun being with them

also, I think i don't like Jamie as much anymore. My mood is fine
it's only at fine because i've been feeling pretty bad lately. I don't know if i'm depressed or what, but it's a really bad feeling. I don't want to do anything at all. Also, my parents haven't been nice. all my brother does all day is tell everyone how horrible I am. I'm not allowed to say anything, and it only makes things worse if i do. I've thought of ways to make them stop-making them finally pay attention to me. I'm not brave enough to like, cut myself or anything(i'd only do that if i was really desperate)but i'm trying not to eat much. Maybe that will make them worry about me. If it doesn't...i'll try something else

please don't judge me. If you think you have the right to judge, then you wouldn't know what I'm talking about

-Eliza